Regrets

Living life, we always have regrets. As a mom, I have so many regrets. Sometimes I wonder how in the world my kids have turned out as good as they have. I haven't been the best mom; I have not always made the right decisions. I realized lately that after my first marriage failed, I was on a mission to find my son a good father figure rather than teaching him how God could fulfill that role in his life and rather than realizing that, as human parents go, I could be enough. As such, in my opinion, I was far from good enough. So it amazes me that now, my son tells me that he doesn't feel I have done anything wrong. To him, it's enough that I've always been here, that I've tried to do what I thought was right for him, even if at times it was way off base. It amazes me that my 13 year old daughter lists me as one of her heroes, second only to God. It amazes that my 3 year old puts her arms around my neck and says, "You are the best mommy ever!" It amazes me that their love and devotion is so pure. Yet even in their love for me, they cannot fathom my love for them, how tremendous, how unconditional, how unending. They won't be able to truly get an idea of my love for them until they, too, become parents.

I think about all of this in relation to our relationship with God. Obviously as a 'parent,' He has no regrets. He never does anything wrong. But we, on the other hand, do more wrong than we even realize. Yet His love for us, each and every one of us, is beyond tremendous, completely unconditional, never ending. He looks at us with such tenderness, with such longing for us to simply 'crawl up in His lap' and say "Daddy I want to spend some time with you." Human parents, at times, may say, "honey I don't have time right now, maybe later" or "give me a few minutes and let me finish what I am doing." God NEVER says those things. He is always ready, always waiting on us to make time for Him. And when we do, it is the best thing we could ever do. Living without God, there are always regrets. Even if you don't think there are any at this point in time, eventually you will say, "I regret living without God in my life." But in living with God, allowing Him to be God over our life, surrendering all to His will, there are NO regrets. And I know that the regrets I have about things in my past are just little little tools the devil tries to use against me to bring me down because my past, my sins have been washed away with the blood of Jesus. I know that His grace is the reason my children feel the way they do about me. I am so thankful for all He's done in my life. Do you truly know Him? Do you know the freedom of being delivered from all things, all sins, that try to keep us down? Turning to Jesus is the best decision I have ever made. Will you make the same one?